Saying Goodbye Sucks....

Happy Tuesday Ladies!

 

I first want to thank everyone who has sent me emails and messages checking in on me!  I have loved reading all your kind words!  I mentioned just about a month ago that my husband may be taking a new job ot of state..and well he was offered the position and took it!  We literally had 3 weeks to pack up, find a new home and move 690 miles away!  It has been a whirlwind to say the least! 

 

We are still unpacking boxes and getting situated in our new home before my husband starts work next week, so once we are all settled in I will tell you all about it!

 

 

If you follow me on social media than you know that my oldest son Harrison decided not to come with us.  He will be 20 in December and loves his job, his friends, and his life in NC...so as much as my mama heart didn't want him to stay, I knew how much he wanted to spread his wings and fly.  He was planning on moving in with some friends in May, so for now he is staying with a close family friend of ours...as a mom this has given so much peace of mind! 

 

I have spent most of the past two weeks crying, bawling my eyes out crying!  I know he is ready to be on his own, and I know he will do just fine, but seriously it still totally sucks him not living with us!  I brag about my kids A LOT...and I know it annoys many people, but Harrison is truly a wonderful young man, and I cannot tell you how wonderful it is to raise a child, and have them be your friend.  Harrison and I have such an incredible bond, I cannot even put into words the love I have for this child.  I enjoy hanging out with him...he is so great. 

 

We left NC early Thursday morning, so Wednesday night our little family all camped out together, on the floor with lots of blankets and pillows, and it just made me so incredibly happy having all my babies together one last time...I know we will all be together again, but like I said, it still sucks!

 

My 3 sons....Harrison will never ever realize how much he is missed by not only me, but his little brothers! 

 

Thursday morning we were all up early, and then the time came, the time that I have been dreading since the day I became a mother 23 years ago....having a child leave the nest!  It was a major cry fest in the driveway at 6am as everyone took turns hugging Harrison and saying goodbye...I was a mess as I watched all my kids crying....and then I had to say goodbye...I fell to pieces....I don't think I have ever in my life hugged so tight as I did that morning.  My first born son, all grown up, ready to be on his own...as proud as I am of him, my heart was shattered into a million pieces...even as i sit here typing this I am sobbing.  I miss him....I just miss him!

 

I'm so blessed he is such an amazing son...he texts me numerous times through the day, and I am so thankful, but seriously I cannot wait for his first visit, (I am hoping he loves it here and decides to stay with us)!

 

In addition to having to say goodbye to Harrison, I also had to say goodbye to my mom...another rough one for me!  You see 10 years ago when I moved to NC my mom swore up and down she wasn't moving until she was ready to retire, but I knew she would be down there in no time...I had all the grandkids, and my brother and sister in law were already there...so 9 months after we moved there, my mom arrived...and all was right in the world...I had my whole family right there with me.  The sucky part here is that I know that isn't going to happen this time...my mom is truly my best friend, saying goodbye sucked!  It makes me so incredibly sad knowing that the holidays are right around the corner and I won't be spending them with her...oh it's gonna be a teary filled few months for me. 

 

I pulled this picture out of a box this weekend and it just made me smile...I love my so so much!

 

The weekend before we left was my niece's birthday, so we were all able to get together one last time...it was so nice to be with my family and have the cousins all together.  I found myself just staring at them all throughout the day, getting teary eyed, just knowing how much I am going to miss them all!

 

My brother and all the kiddos!  There is nothing better than family!

 

In addition to saying goodbye to family, it was hard and sad saying goodbye to wonderful friends, neighbors, co-workers, teachers, and of course AJ's sports family! 

 

AJ's last football game was the Saturday before we left, and the coach had contacted me a few days before and asked if Mark, Harrison and myself would be team captains for that game with AJ...I cannot tell you what it meant to me to walk out there with my boy!

 

To say I was emotional to start the game that night would be a huge understatement!  All the stars were defintiely aligned that night,  because not only AJ, but the ENTIRE team played the best game they have played all season.  AJ was on point, perfect from start to finish.  He made plays that were amazing, and the team won 13-7...and guess what...AJ scored ALL 13 of those points.  Storybook ending for his last game in NC!

 

After each game, the team and parents gather round, and the coaches give their little speeches.  All the coaches spoke and when they got to Harrison, he couldn't speak...he was crying, the last time he would be coahing his little brother...girls, I totally lost it!  I cannot tell you how proud I am to be his mother! 

 

The team had balloons and a card for AJ...and everyone said such nice things about AJ...it was such an amazing night!

 

AJ and his head coach (you can see AJ biting his lip, fighting back tears as a few of his buddies were crying because he was leaving)!

 

Coach Harrison and his two favorite players!

 

Let's totally overlook how awful I look after crying, but I couldn't love this picture anymore...all my guys right here with me!

 

So it's been pretty much a full two weeks of crying, saying goodbye just sucks...no other way to put it...it just sucks!

 

Be sure to check back tomorrow for "What's Up Wednesday"

 

Have a great day!